Sitting here in lotus

and enjoying the softness of just having practiced. Home practice today......oooookay....that's it for lotus now. Ahhhh, that's better.....Still can't manage more than 10 or so minutes like that.

Still here in Safe Mode, and I have to say, this works pretty well, although without "Safe Mode", my laptop won't even boot Windows. So I don't think it would be wise to keep this up for very long. It's really pushing my luck, akin to driving with the reserve light on. Wouldn't want to mess with my extended warranty. For once, it was worth it to get the extended warranty, I might add.

Something else I might add...if my words seem choppy, stilted, it is because my keyboard is all choppy and stilted. And apparently, I can't think if I can't type. Of course, there is always the possibility that it is really the other way around.

Spent my morning once again with the charming (oh, wait...) flunky who is being paid by an insurance company that shall remain nameless, to sing the praises of my cognitive skills, thus rendering me able to sit at a desk for 12 hour stretches, reading endless reams of contracts and figuring out ways to use them to help wealthy clients make even more money. By which I mean I spent my third morning (adding up to close to SEVEN hours altogethe) being subjected to cognitive testing by a shink who is being paid by my insurance company to determine my ability to go back to work as a corporate lawyer. Among other things, I was treated to the 567-question MMPI-2, aka the "Minnesota Multi-something Pesonality something beginning with an "I"".

The MMPI-II is a measure of, I guess, personality traits. It is in the format of a diabolically long true/false S.A.T.. Examples of the questions to which I was required to answer either "true" or "false" included:

• I never lie.
• I sometimes hear voices in my head.
• I know that people are plotting against me.
• I would enjoy being a forest ranger.
• I would enjoy being a construction worker.
• I enjoy drama.
• If a group of people gets into trouble, the best thing is for them to get together and get their stories straight.
• I have acted in ways that are dangerous because I enjoy the excitement.

The biggest problem I had with the test was that I had seen it before. See, my mom used to be a child psychologist, by which I mean a psychologist who works with childen, not a psychologist who is a child. Back when I was a girl, I was at times used as a guinea pig, by which I mean that I was used as a test subject, not as an actual small, furry animal. And so, I already know full well the leading nature of questions like, "True or false, 'I never lie.'"

I told this to the hired flunky/shrink/thug. Nevertheless, she would not let me weasel out of the test. And by weasel...oh never mind.

I answered as honestly as I could, which is to say that I had to answer false to "I never lie" and to "I would enjoy being a construction worker". Of course, I had to answer true to "I know that people are plotting against me".

After all, if they weren't, would I be taking the sodding test?

YC